I
know that it has been a long time since my last journal entry, but I
wanted to take a moment to talk about something that's been on my
mind for the past two days. As most of you reading this may know
already, Pastor Billy Graham, a farmer's son from North Carolina who preached to millions of people about Jesus Christ, a pastor to several Presidents
of the United States, and for more than 60 years had been America's best-known Christian evangelist, passed away at the age of 99 in his home
in Montreat, North Carolina at 7:46 in the morning on February 21, 2018. Even though so much
has been said about his life, his ministry, and his legacy by those
far more eloquent than myself, I wanted to talk about the
effect that Billy Graham has had on me throughout my life.
My first introduction came in the year 1998 at the age of twelve. I grew up with a Christian father who did his best to teach me about God and instructed biblical ethics to me throughout my early life. It was on a Saturday night, and I found my dad watching television in the living room. I cannot recall what brought about my interest, but I soon found myself sitting next to my father and viewing the program. The program was a crusade held by renowned preacher, Pastor Billy Graham, in a big stadium. I don't remember where he preached from, but according to my recent research (thanks to Google and Wikipedia), he may have been at Tampa, Florida at that time. I remembered seeing the Gaither Vocal Band (which I'll talk about later) sing some Christians songs and then heard George Beverly Shea sing “How Great Thou Art” in his baritone voice. While I can't remember what Billy Graham preached about, but I remembered being impressed by his style of oratory. When Pastor Graham had finished preaching and as the choir began to sing, “Just As I Am” a hymn, written by Charlotte Elliott in 1835 (thanks, Wikipedia), my father went to go upstairs to go to bed, I told him I wanted to watch the rest of it. He told me it was already the end of the program, but I still wanted to see how it ended. With that my father allowed me to watch the rest of it and he retired upstairs to bed.
As time went on, I began to become curious and wanted to know more about Pastor Graham and his ministry. I remembered asking my father questions about him and he answered as best as he could with the knowledge that he knew about Dr. Graham. I had hoped that one day, Pastor Graham would come to Massachusetts and then I could ask my dad if we could go and see him together. Pastor Graham never did come to give a crusade in Massachusetts since the beginning of my existence. In fact, the last time he had done so was in 1982, four years before I was born. In 1998, he was 80 years old and by that time he was doing fewer crusades as he was getting on in age. I had even thought of perhaps meeting him one day and perhaps I could introduce him to my dad. That would have been awesome. I wonder what that meeting could have been like. I know I'm getting ahead of myself, but those were what my thoughts at the time.
After the attacks of September 11, 2001, I had developed a cold during that week and stayed home Thursday and Friday, September 13-14 and the rest of the weekend. On the 14th, I was covered in a blanket, occasionally blowing my runny nose with a tissue, and watched the National Day of Prayer and Remembrance Service at the National Cathedral, Washington, D. C. on television. As young as I was, I had developed an interest in history and the American Presidency from an even younger age (that's another story for another time). I felt honored to see history unfolding before my eyes as I viewed President George W. Bush standing with several former presidents: Bill Clinton, his father George H. W. Bush, Jimmy Carter, and Gerald R. Ford. I saw a gentleman helping the elderly Billy Graham up the steps to the podium as a news commentator mentioned his age, then 82, and frail health. As he was going up to speak and thought “my dad would have liked to see this moment” and I thought against telling him as I was still sick. I listened intently as Pastor Graham spoke: “I’ve become an old man now, and I’ve preached all over the world. And the older I get, the more I cling to that hope that I started with many years ago.... My prayer today is that we will feel the loving arms of God wrapped around us and that as we trust in Him, we will know in our hearts that He will never forsake us. We know also that God will give wisdom and courage and strength to the President and those around him. And this will be a day that we will remember as a Day of Victory.” I did not know it then, but that sermon would become a “defining moment in the final decade of his public ministry” (America’s Pastor: Billy Graham and the Shaping of a Nation, Page 283).
Then on another Saturday night in 2001, I saw a program on PAX TV called “A Billy Graham Homecoming Celebration” and I had no idea what I was in store for. I didn't know what a “Homecoming Celebration” was. I had assumed that since Billy Graham was often away from home due to his evangelistic crusades, I thought the people who were singing in the homecoming would be welcoming him home and he would most likely preach a sermon at the end of the celebration. Instead, I saw these wonderful singers (whom I sadly did not know of at the time) sit together in a room with Dr. Graham's wife, Ruth Bell Graham, who was in a wheelchair and singing Christian songs (few of which I knew). It was hosted and produced by Bill Gaither and his wife Gloria. I would become much more acquainted with their music during my college years. I was initially disappointed that Pastor Graham did not show up and was confused as to why he had not, but I enjoyed the songs and the program, nonetheless.
The next year on another Saturday night, my dad was watching another crusade held by Billy Graham at the Metroplex Mission in Dallas, Texas on the same night that I was having a sleepover with friends from church. I was a little embarrassed and I rashly changed the channel to appear “cooler”, but my dad protested, “Hey, I was watching that.” “Oh sorry, Dad” I replied sheepishly and returned the channel to the crusade. I remember country music star Randy Travis was singing that night so it must have taken place on October 19, 2002. It was last time that I would view a Billy Graham crusade with my father, and it was the final crusade that Billy Graham would give. Looking back, I feel a sense of loss of those moments when my father and I would watch those crusades. My father and I would sadly grow apart as I grew into adulthood. I miss those times of innocence and the spiritual moments I shared with my dad.
I went to off to college some years later and while I had times of happiness and frequently look back fondly during my time there, there were also times of loneliness. During those times of loneliness, I would do research on Billy Graham's life and ministry, viewed some of his sermons on YouTube (as well as rediscovering and enjoying music from the Gaithers), and took an interest in obtaining a copy of his autobiography. When I was away from school, my parents had already divorced, and I lived at my aunt's (my father's sister's house) while my father lived there also for a while. On the days I was off from work, I would walk to the local library and read from a copy of “Just As I Am: The Autobiography of Billy Graham,” which I found fascinating. I enjoyed this autobiography a lot more than I thought I would. To think that he grew up on a dairy farm during the Depression-era, studied to become a minister, became a well-renowned evangelist, shared several friendships with American Presidents, world leaders, and celebrities, and most importantly brought people to Christ and through him God would change the lives of those who accepted him.
I remember one afternoon while I was at school in the computer lab, I watched highlights of the dedication of the Billy Graham Library, while former Presidents Jimmy Carter, George H.W. Bush, and Bill Clinton and other dignitaries were in attendance. With the use of my headphones, I viewed and listened the eloquent words that some of the dignitaries who spoke there. They spoke of how Billy Graham had touched their lives and how he brought them closer in their walk with God. As Pastor Graham got up to the podium and said jokingly, “I feel like I've been attending my own funeral.” There was some applause and some laughter, but later on his discourse he said, “And I'm overwhelmed. My one comment to it was it's too much Billy Graham. You know, my whole life has been to please the Lord and to honor Jesus, not to see me.” I was touched by that. It seemed that he did not want attention or be awarded for his preaching of the gospel, his satisfaction in which I assume only, was seeing the millions that came forward and accepted Jesus Christ as their personal savior. He knew it was never about himself, a messenger, but of the message and to the Lord who called him to proclaim that same message of Christ, the Cross, and God's plan to save humanity from sin. Even though he had aged, the power and feelings of convictions were as strong as ever.
While the early morning was seemingly dawning in my life, the sun was setting on Pastor's Graham's life as he was approaching his final years. I had often wondered what he was doing in his home in Montreat, North Carolina and how he spent his time. I imagined that on good days during the spring and summer time, he would be taken outside to be seated in a chair on his front porch of his mountaintop cabin as he would gaze off into the distance as it would appear to him. Perhaps as he sat out there, he would quietly reminisce to himself and review the memories of his life, recalling funny stories and he would quietly laugh to himself, lamenting over personal regrets he may have had, lovingly remember his wife Ruth whom he outlived by a little over ten years, and occasionally receive visitors, family, and friends. All the while holding onto the hope and safe in the knowledge that Jesus Christ was still his Saviour, Lord, and Friend. I imagined him as something like Moses on Mount Nebo, looking toward the promised land before his death, and now the elderly Billy Graham was looking forward to entering the new promised land in heaven when his time on Earth would be completed.
Now his journey has ended, the sun of his life has set. I am in my own life approaching mid-morning and as the years pass, it will be noon, then afternoon, and the sun will begin to set on my life. I took this time to reflect on my own life and wonder if I am doing what God is calling me to do in my life. Pastor Graham's ministry began in 1947 at the age of 27 and went onto to live an amazing life. He made something of it while I now at the age of 31 have not nearly enough. I should not compare my life with his as that would be unfair. My life isn't over yet. Dr. Graham would say that it was not of his doing, but Christ. He would do his best to point people to Jesus. He would cite John 14:6, which will be inscribed on his grave at the Billy Graham Library and Museum in Charlotte, North Carolina where he will be laid to rest.
I have no doubt that Billy Graham was a remarkable man and has probably influenced more people than anyone else in the last century. He has been an inspiration to me for many years. So much so that I intend to order a paperback copy of "Just As I Am: The Autobiography of Billy Graham, Revised and Updated” published in 2007. I seem to have misplaced my hardcover copy so I will order this new one in the next two days. I enjoyed reading and learning about his history and about his family and will do so again when I receive it in the days ahead. I also hope in the coming years to pay a visit to the Billy Graham Library (which blogger Souvenir Chronicles wrote a wonderful blog entry about her visit there in 2013). From what I have read it is a beautiful place, which is informative and inspiring (not to mention that the admission is free). I have purposed in my heart to travel there, visit the library and homestead, and pay my respects to Cliff Barrows, George Beverly Shea, Ruth Bell Graham, and of course to her husband Billy.
My first introduction came in the year 1998 at the age of twelve. I grew up with a Christian father who did his best to teach me about God and instructed biblical ethics to me throughout my early life. It was on a Saturday night, and I found my dad watching television in the living room. I cannot recall what brought about my interest, but I soon found myself sitting next to my father and viewing the program. The program was a crusade held by renowned preacher, Pastor Billy Graham, in a big stadium. I don't remember where he preached from, but according to my recent research (thanks to Google and Wikipedia), he may have been at Tampa, Florida at that time. I remembered seeing the Gaither Vocal Band (which I'll talk about later) sing some Christians songs and then heard George Beverly Shea sing “How Great Thou Art” in his baritone voice. While I can't remember what Billy Graham preached about, but I remembered being impressed by his style of oratory. When Pastor Graham had finished preaching and as the choir began to sing, “Just As I Am” a hymn, written by Charlotte Elliott in 1835 (thanks, Wikipedia), my father went to go upstairs to go to bed, I told him I wanted to watch the rest of it. He told me it was already the end of the program, but I still wanted to see how it ended. With that my father allowed me to watch the rest of it and he retired upstairs to bed.
As time went on, I began to become curious and wanted to know more about Pastor Graham and his ministry. I remembered asking my father questions about him and he answered as best as he could with the knowledge that he knew about Dr. Graham. I had hoped that one day, Pastor Graham would come to Massachusetts and then I could ask my dad if we could go and see him together. Pastor Graham never did come to give a crusade in Massachusetts since the beginning of my existence. In fact, the last time he had done so was in 1982, four years before I was born. In 1998, he was 80 years old and by that time he was doing fewer crusades as he was getting on in age. I had even thought of perhaps meeting him one day and perhaps I could introduce him to my dad. That would have been awesome. I wonder what that meeting could have been like. I know I'm getting ahead of myself, but those were what my thoughts at the time.
After the attacks of September 11, 2001, I had developed a cold during that week and stayed home Thursday and Friday, September 13-14 and the rest of the weekend. On the 14th, I was covered in a blanket, occasionally blowing my runny nose with a tissue, and watched the National Day of Prayer and Remembrance Service at the National Cathedral, Washington, D. C. on television. As young as I was, I had developed an interest in history and the American Presidency from an even younger age (that's another story for another time). I felt honored to see history unfolding before my eyes as I viewed President George W. Bush standing with several former presidents: Bill Clinton, his father George H. W. Bush, Jimmy Carter, and Gerald R. Ford. I saw a gentleman helping the elderly Billy Graham up the steps to the podium as a news commentator mentioned his age, then 82, and frail health. As he was going up to speak and thought “my dad would have liked to see this moment” and I thought against telling him as I was still sick. I listened intently as Pastor Graham spoke: “I’ve become an old man now, and I’ve preached all over the world. And the older I get, the more I cling to that hope that I started with many years ago.... My prayer today is that we will feel the loving arms of God wrapped around us and that as we trust in Him, we will know in our hearts that He will never forsake us. We know also that God will give wisdom and courage and strength to the President and those around him. And this will be a day that we will remember as a Day of Victory.” I did not know it then, but that sermon would become a “defining moment in the final decade of his public ministry” (America’s Pastor: Billy Graham and the Shaping of a Nation, Page 283).
Then on another Saturday night in 2001, I saw a program on PAX TV called “A Billy Graham Homecoming Celebration” and I had no idea what I was in store for. I didn't know what a “Homecoming Celebration” was. I had assumed that since Billy Graham was often away from home due to his evangelistic crusades, I thought the people who were singing in the homecoming would be welcoming him home and he would most likely preach a sermon at the end of the celebration. Instead, I saw these wonderful singers (whom I sadly did not know of at the time) sit together in a room with Dr. Graham's wife, Ruth Bell Graham, who was in a wheelchair and singing Christian songs (few of which I knew). It was hosted and produced by Bill Gaither and his wife Gloria. I would become much more acquainted with their music during my college years. I was initially disappointed that Pastor Graham did not show up and was confused as to why he had not, but I enjoyed the songs and the program, nonetheless.
The next year on another Saturday night, my dad was watching another crusade held by Billy Graham at the Metroplex Mission in Dallas, Texas on the same night that I was having a sleepover with friends from church. I was a little embarrassed and I rashly changed the channel to appear “cooler”, but my dad protested, “Hey, I was watching that.” “Oh sorry, Dad” I replied sheepishly and returned the channel to the crusade. I remember country music star Randy Travis was singing that night so it must have taken place on October 19, 2002. It was last time that I would view a Billy Graham crusade with my father, and it was the final crusade that Billy Graham would give. Looking back, I feel a sense of loss of those moments when my father and I would watch those crusades. My father and I would sadly grow apart as I grew into adulthood. I miss those times of innocence and the spiritual moments I shared with my dad.
I went to off to college some years later and while I had times of happiness and frequently look back fondly during my time there, there were also times of loneliness. During those times of loneliness, I would do research on Billy Graham's life and ministry, viewed some of his sermons on YouTube (as well as rediscovering and enjoying music from the Gaithers), and took an interest in obtaining a copy of his autobiography. When I was away from school, my parents had already divorced, and I lived at my aunt's (my father's sister's house) while my father lived there also for a while. On the days I was off from work, I would walk to the local library and read from a copy of “Just As I Am: The Autobiography of Billy Graham,” which I found fascinating. I enjoyed this autobiography a lot more than I thought I would. To think that he grew up on a dairy farm during the Depression-era, studied to become a minister, became a well-renowned evangelist, shared several friendships with American Presidents, world leaders, and celebrities, and most importantly brought people to Christ and through him God would change the lives of those who accepted him.
I remember one afternoon while I was at school in the computer lab, I watched highlights of the dedication of the Billy Graham Library, while former Presidents Jimmy Carter, George H.W. Bush, and Bill Clinton and other dignitaries were in attendance. With the use of my headphones, I viewed and listened the eloquent words that some of the dignitaries who spoke there. They spoke of how Billy Graham had touched their lives and how he brought them closer in their walk with God. As Pastor Graham got up to the podium and said jokingly, “I feel like I've been attending my own funeral.” There was some applause and some laughter, but later on his discourse he said, “And I'm overwhelmed. My one comment to it was it's too much Billy Graham. You know, my whole life has been to please the Lord and to honor Jesus, not to see me.” I was touched by that. It seemed that he did not want attention or be awarded for his preaching of the gospel, his satisfaction in which I assume only, was seeing the millions that came forward and accepted Jesus Christ as their personal savior. He knew it was never about himself, a messenger, but of the message and to the Lord who called him to proclaim that same message of Christ, the Cross, and God's plan to save humanity from sin. Even though he had aged, the power and feelings of convictions were as strong as ever.
While the early morning was seemingly dawning in my life, the sun was setting on Pastor's Graham's life as he was approaching his final years. I had often wondered what he was doing in his home in Montreat, North Carolina and how he spent his time. I imagined that on good days during the spring and summer time, he would be taken outside to be seated in a chair on his front porch of his mountaintop cabin as he would gaze off into the distance as it would appear to him. Perhaps as he sat out there, he would quietly reminisce to himself and review the memories of his life, recalling funny stories and he would quietly laugh to himself, lamenting over personal regrets he may have had, lovingly remember his wife Ruth whom he outlived by a little over ten years, and occasionally receive visitors, family, and friends. All the while holding onto the hope and safe in the knowledge that Jesus Christ was still his Saviour, Lord, and Friend. I imagined him as something like Moses on Mount Nebo, looking toward the promised land before his death, and now the elderly Billy Graham was looking forward to entering the new promised land in heaven when his time on Earth would be completed.
Now his journey has ended, the sun of his life has set. I am in my own life approaching mid-morning and as the years pass, it will be noon, then afternoon, and the sun will begin to set on my life. I took this time to reflect on my own life and wonder if I am doing what God is calling me to do in my life. Pastor Graham's ministry began in 1947 at the age of 27 and went onto to live an amazing life. He made something of it while I now at the age of 31 have not nearly enough. I should not compare my life with his as that would be unfair. My life isn't over yet. Dr. Graham would say that it was not of his doing, but Christ. He would do his best to point people to Jesus. He would cite John 14:6, which will be inscribed on his grave at the Billy Graham Library and Museum in Charlotte, North Carolina where he will be laid to rest.
I have no doubt that Billy Graham was a remarkable man and has probably influenced more people than anyone else in the last century. He has been an inspiration to me for many years. So much so that I intend to order a paperback copy of "Just As I Am: The Autobiography of Billy Graham, Revised and Updated” published in 2007. I seem to have misplaced my hardcover copy so I will order this new one in the next two days. I enjoyed reading and learning about his history and about his family and will do so again when I receive it in the days ahead. I also hope in the coming years to pay a visit to the Billy Graham Library (which blogger Souvenir Chronicles wrote a wonderful blog entry about her visit there in 2013). From what I have read it is a beautiful place, which is informative and inspiring (not to mention that the admission is free). I have purposed in my heart to travel there, visit the library and homestead, and pay my respects to Cliff Barrows, George Beverly Shea, Ruth Bell Graham, and of course to her husband Billy.
The sun is now set
and it's Saturday night again. As I was typing this, I have been
listening to a prerecorded livestream from the Billy Graham
Evangelistic Association website, featuring excerpts of Billy Graham's
sermons, interviews with people who knew and interacted with him,
highlights of Ruth's contribution to her husband's life and ministry
as well as her own amazing life story. I found myself inspired again
and will have to do some serious soul searching. This time has caused me to reflect on own relationship with God. I must examine and re-examine my own heart. I must bend my will to God’s will and be born again. I need to look to the Cross again. "The cross tells us that God understands our sin and our suffering," Pastor Graham once said, "for
he took upon himself in the person of Jesus Christ our sins and our
suffering. And from the cross, God declares, 'I love you. I know the
heartaches and the sorrows and the pains that you feel. But I love you.'
The story does not end with the cross, for Easter points us beyond the
tragedy of the cross to the empty tomb that tells us that there is hope
for eternal life, for Christ has conquered evil and death and hell. Yes,
there is hope."
My own feeble words expressed here may drift into obscurity and even if they remain unnoticed, one thing that will never be forgotten will be the story of a humble man who allowed himself to be used by God and the lives of thousands who were touched by the message he preached. What was that message? Simple. God loves us and he sent his son Jesus to die on the cross for our sins and when we put our faith and trust in Jesus we are forgiven. There lies our hope. Therein lies his legacy. This was the message that Billy Graham preached to millions around the world. He once concluded one of his final sermons with these words: "If you remember nothing else that I've said this evening, remember these three words: GOD LOVES YOU."
I want to close this entry with a brief excerpt from Just As I Am: The Autobiography of Billy Graham (1997): "I don’t know the future, but I do know this: the best is yet to be! Heaven awaits us, and that will be far, far more glorious than anything we can ever imagine. I know that soon my life will be over. I thank God for it, and for all He has given me in this life. But I look forward to Heaven. I look forward to the reunion with friends and loved ones who have gone on before. I look forward to Heaven’s freedom from sorrow and pain. I also look forward to serving God in ways we can’t begin to imagine, for the Bible makes it clear that Heaven is not a place of idleness. And most of all, I look forward to seeing Christ and bowing before Him in praise and gratitude for all He has done for us, and for using me on this earth by His grace — just as I am."
My own feeble words expressed here may drift into obscurity and even if they remain unnoticed, one thing that will never be forgotten will be the story of a humble man who allowed himself to be used by God and the lives of thousands who were touched by the message he preached. What was that message? Simple. God loves us and he sent his son Jesus to die on the cross for our sins and when we put our faith and trust in Jesus we are forgiven. There lies our hope. Therein lies his legacy. This was the message that Billy Graham preached to millions around the world. He once concluded one of his final sermons with these words: "If you remember nothing else that I've said this evening, remember these three words: GOD LOVES YOU."
I want to close this entry with a brief excerpt from Just As I Am: The Autobiography of Billy Graham (1997): "I don’t know the future, but I do know this: the best is yet to be! Heaven awaits us, and that will be far, far more glorious than anything we can ever imagine. I know that soon my life will be over. I thank God for it, and for all He has given me in this life. But I look forward to Heaven. I look forward to the reunion with friends and loved ones who have gone on before. I look forward to Heaven’s freedom from sorrow and pain. I also look forward to serving God in ways we can’t begin to imagine, for the Bible makes it clear that Heaven is not a place of idleness. And most of all, I look forward to seeing Christ and bowing before Him in praise and gratitude for all He has done for us, and for using me on this earth by His grace — just as I am."
